Toppers!

I think it is rather hard to top the blog from yesterday, especially when it can be boiled down too: "There's an ostrich on top of the Christmas Tree because the walrus wouldn't stay".... Nevertheless, that was the case.

Christmas is around the corner, and suffice it to say, I have yet to feel jolly. It will be like it was last year. Christmas will come and go and I won't notice. I just know that my only prevailing thought as the New Year comes barreling along will simply be, "Will this ever end?" And, it won't. I must admit 2008 is or was a bullshit year. It simply was a bullshit year. There is so much I wish I could say or do, but I can't....

I don't want to come back to Central Illinois when the holidays are over. There's nothing to come back too...... nothing. One of the biggest emotions I have been grappling with since July has that huge feeling of loneliness that fell on my when I sat in the hospital dealing with my near... death? I guess it could've been that. It was painful. I can say that. I can't get rid of it... Being here just multiplies it TEN FOLD. I need to get OUT OF HERE.... great, I am becoming a downer. This is supposed to be a fun place. I will stop. Let's see if I can find an upper... Hang on:

Yeah... That's more like it... A very "Joe" cartoon... I will try this again when I am in better spirits. There is a walk that must be taken before it storms bloody murder. Peace!