WHAT THE HELL WAS THIS!?!?!?

You won't believe this... I just wrote an extremely personal blog and almost posted the damn thing... Until my phone rang and I came to my senses. I said, "NO WAY WILL I SHARE THIS!?!?! WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!?!?!?" It was pathetic! You really don't need to know what I've been thinking or why I've been doing some of the things that I do.. or why I felt the need to distance... It is not any or your business. It isn't even my business. I don't even like to know why I do what I do... I like to be surprised like everybody else. Just the basics ... I have a plan. That's all you need to know. Though, I must admit, it was a very nicely written personal statement. It would've have left you speechless. You would have said, "Joe, I didn't know you could write so eloquently and with such passion!" You would've been left in sheer awe! I mean it! It was great! It was stupendous! Yeah, baby, I can fucking write like nobody's business if I damn well feel like it. The words just flowed from my mind...to my fingers... to the keyboard... to the screen! Yes, it was great thought that from the mind that I decided I wasn't going to use to think with anymore (which I will start doing once again... Fuck my thoughts... seriously...)! I was sweating and panting.. my heart was skipping beats, it was so damn good... and personal... and ... and beautiful! SHEER POETRY... from the bottom of my heart... to the depths of my soul! But, sorry. It was deleted. No sharing. Nope. Not at all... Ha ha! I remain ever so mysterious... Not that I am mysterious. I don't think I am all that mysterious. I do keep to myself. In a moment of non-clarity, I almost slipped with this Nobel Prize in Literature winning stuff that I almost posted a few moments ago! But my exceptionally brave and AWESOME private thoughts will remain just that... PRIVATE! Hey, don't even think about asking me to share... No! None of your business. Go away! Leave me be! It's dead! DEAD I TELL YOU! Oh, you think you can get it out of me? FAT CHANCE! I am a rock! AN ISLAND!... actually a Polach-Czech rock-island thingy... But, still! I won't budge! In fact, I've written so much crap since then, that I don't even remember what I had written.... Okay, I remember now, but no! You won't... I MEAN WON'T ever know... NEVER!!!!

I want a Donavon album. I want the one that has all his folksy stuff in one big anthology. I was listening to my I-Pod, and one of his songs came on. I thought to myself, "Wow! That's really very nice!" I've been in this folksy mood... I almost bought a Pete Seeger albumn last night on I-Tunes... I didn't, but I almost did... So, now I want a Donavon Albumn... "Call me Mellow Yellow!"... So, that is one thought I will share. I also ran out of popcorn... and all my food, actually. I have to go get some.

Yup, the above was random to prevent you from thinking I had written anything so great as I did for the past hour... I did. It was great. I worked on it an hour. But, I won't share. HA! I am impressed that I could write beautiful thoughts when in such a cynical mood. When I got home, I was ready to go into the whole, "Life is such bullshit! Bastards always fucking win!" thing... but, I didn't. I am proud. Instead... I opened up... BUT CLOSED !!! YES!!!!!

Now I am bored with my nonesense. Peace out!