Pins and Needles

I still can't remember what it was that I wanted to write earlier. You want to know what that means? It means that whatever it was, wasn't worth much in the first place. I save you, dear reader, the ... What do I save you? Oh, yeah, I save you time by not boring you with some hack bullshit from the crap that is my brain.

I've also been dealing with some serious thoughtage lately that has been puting a crimp on the humor portions. I guess it has been, what should I call it? Oh, unfinished thoughts started a couple months ago. My trip to Subway yesterday (forgetting that I can't have most of the good stuff on my sandwich) dredged up bad feelings. It was a catalyst that blossomed some unproductive bullshit. Take for example this question I had while I walked yesterday: "Why am I doing this? Is there a point? Am I wasting my time? Who seriously gives a rats ass if I am on this planet or not?" Yeah... very deconstructive thoughts. Not good.

Mental note on furture walks... Clear mind... Focus on nothing but music and not getting hit by cars.....

Anyhoo, did I mention my new fish Miles? He's a red and blue Beta fish. No, I haven't forgotten Ike.... I just had this food left over. I had a lot of food leftover, not to mention a tank type thing. Miles seems nice enough. I figure he'll die soon anyway... in seven days, I think. That's when the new warrenty expires on that little guy.

I really should go and get my work done instead of forcing a non-issue here. My thought is gone. GONE! It isn't coming back, that is, it won't come back until 3:00am in the morning. I will say, "AHA!" as I awaken from a dream. Then I will think to myself, "must remember!" I will forget as soon as my head hits the pillow. Such is the way my mind doesn't work.

It is really very pathetic when there is nothing around that inspires. Think about what kind of day it was when the only thing amusing that happened was... well... shit. See? I can't think of anything that made me actually laugh. I smiled a couple times. I remember that. .... As for a good laugh? No. That's not good. Usually I find something funny during the day. .... Hmmmm...

Well, I am out. I am going to search for something funny.