"Joe, you think to damn much!"

A Bunch of Strung Along Bits.... Ready? Set? Go!

Okay... so what... so I do. What's wrong with that? Sure... I think so damn much that I can't ever make a real decision... I decide something and then re-think my way in a different direction.... Okay, so I am indecisive. So what!?! Isn't it a Buddhist principle that basically says sometimes it's best to just sit there and do nothing? I think it's Buddhist. Anyway, isn't that what I am doing? Well, besides all the driving I do... I mean, what is it I have to DO Something? I don't, now, do I?

I've been avoiding, too. I've been avoiding those real tough decisions that we need to make sometimes. I just don't want to make them. Instead, I wait for divine inspiration or intervention. The only thing that has really happened is that... every new place I walk, my path is crossed by a dear. I haven't a fucking clue what that means, other then... ummmm.... I don't know what the fuck that means?

Last night I was talking with somebody I rarely know. She said, "What are you still doing here in (Location in Central Illinois)? You don't strike me as somebody who belongs in (Location in Central Illinois)." I don't know what to make of this....

My work has been damn awful lately. I can't figure out why. Today, I was so cranky at the end of the day I wanted to rip somebody's head off... anybody really. I was so cranky that I couldn't make any jokes.... well, not good ones. I started attacking people I know in my head... and verbally lashed out against one to another person. That person didn't do anything and neither did the person who I lashed out too... I knew at that moment I should've avoided the dinner meeting and went home to just sit there.

I have a new couch in my main room. It came from a friend. It's nice. I fell asleep on it yesterday. I guess that means we've bonded. The old couch... a couch with bad history is sitting next to me covered with boxes. I am using it in my den as a spare bed because it's a hidabed. I know, you don't care. Neither would I, but I find it terribly exciting because I have a guest bed... Now, I need overnight guests. Oddly, nobody comes to visit me here in Central Illionis. What kind of bullshit is that?!?!? I can entertain! AND, I have a map of Wisconsin on the wall that shows all the locations of Wisconsin breweries, dairies, and wineries. In fact, back in the day, I used it to help plan a couple road trips to find certain beers.... sigh... I really have no longer a use for it. I put it up on the wall. I just noticed today that Colby, WI... home of Colby Cheese has a special banner. I guess Colby is a special cheese. Go Colby!

I learned there was a Chedder, England... Hmmmmm.... the wheels are turning.

I want to go to Buffalo, New York for Buffalo wings... Who's with me?

I think that's enough bits. I have more, but I fear, in my present state of mind, where these bits might go. At present, I hate my present situation.