Tired of Learning the Same Old Lesson...

I have the luxury of taking time off for an extended period of time. I decided to spend this time in Wisconsin like I usually do when I feel the need to get away and disconnect. Last year I rather mentally fell apart. I was physically and mentally exhausted. When I had the chance, I high-tailed it out of central Illinois to spend some much needed down town in the woods. Of course, as things go, I ended up with Lyme Disease... All in all? I got that chance to put my head back on and take a look at things under an introspective microscope is you will. I made some decisions. I put together a couple plans. I read. I did woodsy type things. I worked on some projects. It was great! I almost fell refreshed. I was ready to return back to my life.... I hoped things would be different. I hoped things would have changed. I figured I might have changed (of course, I probably didn't). BUT, like I have learned a thousand times before, nothing ever changes. Everything is as it was. I am as it was. The people around me is as they were. The same conversations. The same gripes. The same this and or that. Why did I leave the woods where I was very, very happy? Grrrr....

I want to cut myself off a bit just to maintain my sanity and work on those plans. Let me tell you, it's my ambition to leave central Illinois sooner rather than later. I think ... I actually don't know what my problem is... I guess I just rather live in ignorance to all that crap that goes on all around me.

And, here I am again, being a downer.


Okay, so I eat fiber cereal everyday for breakfast... That's exciting. I've been grazing on whole grain for a year now. I think I am turning into a cow. Moo!

I shaved my summer beard the other day. I was afraid that people were going to start throwing Jerky Treats at me. ... Messing with Sasquatch.

Well, kids... I have no agenda this moment in time. I merely wanted to stop in and start to get my groove back. I miss the writing. I just struggle with making it good.

Prost!

LYME!!!

I guess it was bound to happen. I do work in the woods from time to time. I became a little complacent. WHAM! I am now diseased. My arm can move now. There was a time that it couldn't. It hurt like hell and couldn't move. Now it itches like hell and is a little sore. I hate ticks. I hated ticks before this happened, but now I LOATH ticks! I LOATH THEM SO MUCH I WILL WRITE IT AGAIN: I LOATHE TICKS!

Being diseased sucks. I have to take a horse pill to kill the vermin that the S.O.B. left in my blood stream. I hate that. My blood being the breeding ground for some bacteria I can't pronounce. I bet I end up with food poisoning. One nasty old bacteria can't have all the fun playing around in my insides! Hell! Let's add another!

I LOATHE TICKS!!!

WTF?!??!

I am thinking of making it a new tradition after I leave Wisconsin for the summer. I will go to the Doctor because I have a new disease. At present my arm has formed a nice round, ruby-red circle of epic proportions! My arm joint hurts like hell.. and I think I have a temp. These are symptoms of Lyme's Disease. Now, it could be an allergic reaction to something else, but I am telling you it ain't pretty.

Peace!